Music Weekly: "Just Dance"

Alright, so I have a few playlists that I actively add music to to keep me entertained while at work.  This week, I'll be talking about modifications to my dance playlist which I call "Just Dance".  Usually in the future, you can expect these updates during any given week to maybe be a song of the week as opposed to a whole playlist, but depending on my time and mood, sometimes I actually get the chance to make a whole playlist which I'll release here.  For this week, since I'm introducing "Just Dance" for the first time, I have an album sized playlist and a few songs that have been resonating with me this week.

"Just Dance"  v1.0
1) Umbrella - Rhianna (Seamus Haji Radio Edit)
2) Dancing On My Own - Robyn (Buzz Junkies Radio Edit)
3) Discotheque - Elin Lanto
4) Airplanes - B.o.B feat. Haley Williams [from Paramore]
5) Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus
6) Fantasy - Nadia Ali (Original Mix)
7) Happiness - Alexis Jordan (Deadmau5 Radio Edit)
8) Dust in Gravity - Delerium feat. Kreesha Turner
9) Kiss Me Back (Cry Tonight) - Kim Sozzi (Jeff Martens Radio Edit)
10) Battlefield - Jordin Sparks (Bimbo Jones Radio Edit)
11) I Will Be Here - Tiesto feat. Sneaky Sound System
12) Fine Print - Nadia Ali (Original Mix)

Particular highlights for me from the list currently are Robyn's "Dancing On My Own" and Nadia Ali's "Fantasy" as both songs play on my general anguish in regards to relationships with almost anyone around me.  At the moment, little seems to be going very successfully and the whole deal just makes me feel like a big, gooey mess.  While I'm no longer interested in trying to have someone enter my life to give me a shortcut to what I believe would be less messy of a life, I'm still struggling under heavy feelings of being just completely overwhelmed and mostly the feeling that no matter how hard I work that things are almost completely out of my control.  Due to this mindset that I'm grappling with, I often (more than not lately) wonder if I deserved any attention; I just feel kind of ugly.

In any case, on the bright side, both "Dust in Gravity" and "Happiness" are highlights of their own.  "Dust in Gravity" reminds me that I refuse to let life to just roll onward without me taking part and that I have goals I do want to reach if I only try.  "Happiness" just reminds me that I need to give myself the time I need to work on myself to reach those goal and eventual happiness; I'll admit though that I am overlooking the obvious reference to finding happiness being with that special someone, haha.  I guess my overall conclusion even (as I grapple with myself and drag my feet with following through) is that happiness with someone can't really happen right now until I've sorted out myself and feel a little less messy.

Hopefully later this week I'll be able to drop some free writing, but there will be more music incoming in the next weeks to come for sure,
-Elaron